I have been suffering from depression for many years. I kept on getting depressed by wanting things that are out of my reach. Aspiration for wealth, power, and fame have not even been my main reasons of depression. There were just basic things in life which have depressed me over time. Some years back, I lived in poverty and fear of having to pay off my bills. I was also evicted from my house, and was very close of being homeless. As a result of these and other things, I tried to commit suicide multiple times. But, while trying to kill myself, during the process I have always changed my mind, and decided to continue living on. One way I tried to commit suicide was by putting on my head multiple layers of clothing, to the point that I was not able to breathe. But, some seconds later I came back to my senses and determined that I shouldn’t do it. Another instance was when I tried to intentionally have a drug overdose. After taking a very large dose of some drugs which I have read could result in fatality, I was almost fully certain that this would be my last day on earth. After consuming a fatal dose of drugs, almost instantly I once again came back to my senses, and started to ask myself, what am I doing? Off course, it was too late, as I have already taken an excessive dose of drugs. And, slowly I began experiencing all of the side effects, which I have read to be the side effects from a fatal drug overdose. But, I managed to stay alive. From these occurrences, I believe that it was actually Jesus Christ who saved my life. I believe that my mind was changed as a result of Christ’s power and influence. I believe that Jesus wants me to still live in this world for now, no matter how many struggles I am facing. This could mean that my work on this earth is not finished, and I shouldn’t end my own life. I have faith that eventually, the Lord would accept my soul into heaven, and that I won’t have to end my own life for this to happen. My motivation in keep on living is continuing releasing music, trying to feel Christ’s presence closer, and each day to have faith that any second I would appear in heaven, and would get eternal joy and happiness. I am really excited for this, as I am fully certain that in heaven I would be eternally beautiful, and there won’t be a need of constant make-up as well as frequent looking after my weight. For those who are thinking about ending their own lives, please do not commit suicide. This would save you from eternal hell. Try to find things in life that are worth living for. And, have faith that any second Jesus would come back to Earth and establish His eternal Kingdom, and accept you into heaven. Really wish my entrance into heaven to happen as soon as possible, in a way that the Lord would personally put an end to my life and accept my soul into His eternal Kingdom. I am really grateful and thankful that Jesus Christ saved my life from eternal hell. I am certainly looking forward to an eternal heaven.
I am in the process of releasing my new album, in which are couple of songs that describe my salvation out from the suicide attempts. The songs are “Jesus Saved My Life” and “Thank You Jesus For Saving My Life”.
FEATURED: 💃 Feel the Caribbean Rhythm, Embrace the Eternal Joy; Dancing to “Feeling Eternal Joy” – Gloria Sabra!
If you like dancing or watching a Latina dance, this Merengue moment is pure happiness. Let the music lift you up and move with joy!